Last night was rough, sleep-wise. My 62-year-old bladder got me out of bed twice, then I was rousted out of bed in the early morning to move my car. We’re having insulation blown into our house from the outside and they needed the driveway. Of course, nobody told me this the day before. If I’d known, I’d have moved the car the night before.
I became aware of an impending migraine once I got back into bed. I was exhausted and strung out from multiple awakenings. My regular morning alarm came and went. All I wanted to do was to stay in bed where it was safe and warm. I didn’t want to do anything. I had client work to do, but didn’t want to touch it. I was tired and angry due to the multiple disruptions to my sleep. My head was starting to hurt even more. Then the fucking doorbell rang. I knew who it was: the insulation people said they’d need to get into my basement and would ring my bell once they needed to do that. So, up and out of bed I went – cold, tired, headachey and very irritable. I threw a sweatshirt over my pajamas, stumbled downstairs and opened the basement door.
I needed something to get me out of the funk I was in. How about a start-the-day meditation over a cup of coffee or tea? That idea sounded appealing, so I went downstairs, scooped some tea into a tea pot and finished getting dressed while the kettle heated up. Then I poured the tea, portioned out some almonds and then cut up a ripe pear. I took out my cell phone, pulled up my meditation app and sat back to breathe and, eventually, relax. The wounds of the morning faded into the distance as I noted my breathing: in-out, in-out, in-out. I felt my body relax and my outlook improve. Yes, I could do a little work and do it well. I could also write about my morning (a great way for me to get things out of my system), browse some articles I heard about the day before and enjoy the day.
So, here I am. The migraine aspirin is just now starting to kick in. My chest has unclenched and I’m breathing comfortably. I’m giving myself permission to write and relax, read a little bit and start my day, even though half of it is already gone. I’m munching on almonds and a pear. I think I’ll be okay.
Well, I did something good for myself this morning. My day started with an estimate from my insurance company: a rather piddling final estimate for repairs to my kitchen. This was not a good sign of how the rest of the day would go.
The first stage of relief came when I mentioned the amount to my husband. He thought that was not a bad estimate and was in line with what he thought the repairs would cost. I then went through my files and found my contractor’s estimate, which was about $2,000 higher than the insurance company. I think at this point I’m ready to drop this whole back-and-forth shit and call it done.
My chest was tight with tension, though. That happens when I get overly stressed. I start having trouble breathing and I can’t concentrate. Fortunately, I remembered that I’m trying to integrate more meditation into my day and decided to do a five minute online session. It really helped. My breathing calmed down, at least temporarily, and I felt more focused and centered.
So, want to try it for yourself? I started a five minute meditation at calm.com. Enjoy!
I’m not sure this qualifies as a new year’s resolution, but I’m making a concerted effort to work in more time for meditation. The stress in my life being what it is, I figure it can’t do me any harm. In fact, it stands to do me some serious good.
I joined a telephone wellness group through my health care provider. We’ve all got our healthy resolutions (lose weight, exercise me, find more “me” time, etc.). My goal was greater relief from stress.
I’m starting with mindfulness meditation, which is a lot harder than it sounds. Basically, you clear your mind and concentrate on your breathing for a period of time. I can make it through about five minutes before I start to go crazy. It’s a discipline. Right now I’m aiming for two times a day, up to 10 minutes per session. I’m not there yet, but I am trying.
So, anyone know any websites that have morning meditations, something to get you going rather than calm you down into a stupor? I welcome any and all suggestions!
Today I am baking. I haven’t baked a loaf of bread in years and now that 2013 is behind me I want to give myself more fulfilling activity. Last year was tough – actually, the last year and a half. A lot fell by the wayside, including aspects of my health. My doctor is telling me I need to de-stress and I’m taking her advice, with health and fitness activities and meditation. So, I’m hoping for a better, healthier and more prosperous 2014. Today, bread will be my guide.
I’m starting out small. No fancy whole grains or anything else, just a simple, white loaf that’ll come out of the oven this evening, just in time for dinner.